Sleep, or Lack There of

I feel like a living, breathing corpse right now. Seriously. I have had so damn much on my mind the past few days, not counting exams and my recent bout with a sinus infection. Well, I have never felt this shitty. I cannot wait for Thursday night after my Calculus final, then I will be free. Free to sleep, free to talk to Patrick, free to drink large amounts of liquor and not care about what I will feel like the next day.
I would, however, like to mention Alison. She is one amazing girl. I have talked to her about so much recently and she has helped me and given me great advice on everything. The her and Sean dilemma is pretty funny, and also a little sad at the same time, but I knew it would be very short-lived.
I really just want to be able to sit down and talk with Patrick. I am really upset with myself that I couldn't wait until after the break to start seeing him, but here I am now in this really strange dilemma. There is nothing wrong with what we have going at all, au contraire I am very excited and happy with the way things have been going. It is just that I wish he had more time so we could talk about things, because believe me, there is a-plenty to talk about.
On going home, I am once again very very excited. I miss everyone and everything, but I think that after a month, I will be so ready to come back to Chicago. Christmas is going to be different this year, but I think it will be very appropriate for the given circumstances.
Anyways, that's what is going on. I just hope that I can remember all the things I studied for Chemistry and that I can kick the Calculus exam's ASS!!