Okay, I must be on drugs....

I had the most fucked up dream EVER today during my nap. I usually sleep between my mythology and anthropology classes if i do not have any work to do. So i took a nap, and there i was, in my dorm room. Except, it wasn't really my dorm room (you know how dreams are) and i could fly. I was going to fly to classes, but my parents were all pissed off about me flying to classes, but i did it anyway.On the way to classes, i see JP and she is like, 'lets go smoke.' So we go to this hall and i put my books down and for some strange reason, M. Pomme is there (WTF, i know!). So JP pulls out an asprin bottle/bong and she gets high, then M. Pomme gets naked. Fucking butt naked. I'm all freaked out in my dream and highly uncomfortable. So he smokes and i smoke. Then, he starts to rub up against me and i'm all trippy and i look at JP and she doesn't know what the fuck is going on. Shit happens etc.etc.etc.

Is there some kind of medication that can fix this? Seriously. What the fuck, man? I thought i was completely over M. Pomme, which i am, but you know how those things go.

Update on my shitty friend situation. I talked to ronnie and he cleared everything up and we will no longer be seeing each other. I could not even begin to understand his logic for the whole situation because it was completely nonsensical. I have oft seen Ida and Sean in the halls and in passing and still no eye contact. They are the ones that have problems with me. It just sucks to lose two really close friends. I miss Ida. Sean is a piece, but he was my piece.

On a heavier note, i think school is starting to affect my health. And i'm not just talking about the smoking. I had a fucked up episode and i couldn't hear and my face went white and i was all fatigued, but it passed, but it freaked me out nonetheless.

Maddy isn't comming easter weekend :( because her mom needs her home for good friday etc. to watch jack. It's completely understandable. Plus, i will still get to see her because i will be home on thursday.

Jared Diamond is a god. I want to read every book he has ever written.

My roomate is most probably passive aggressive.

My dad rocks. i love him.

Confession Time

The first boy that i have ever truly liked is straight and i can't stop liking him because i am afraid of being alone.

STPD

It's fucking St. Patrick's day and everyone is dressed in green. My anthro teacher told us to go and drink green beer for homework......um......okay. I am REALLY excited for tonight because i haven't been drunk in about 48 hours and i'm ready for some fun.

sean dugan etc. etc. ronnie etc. etc. leaving loyola etc. etc.

you get the picture

I'm Fucking Back

So i'll be posting on my Xanga and on my Blog from now on.

Update on my life: it's a fucking mess. Sean Dugan, Ronnie, everything. Ick. I applied for WashU and i have yet to do my essay, transcripts, and my mid-semester report. That will hopefully be done by the end of next week.

Ronnie at mokabees likes me and we fooled around over spring break. Not only that, he really fucking likes me and wants to have a steady realtionship. Don't want to say too much about this cause i don't know who reads this. He is going back to college though, which scores major points for him.

Sean fucking Dugan. Yeah, shit happened and i would explicate on this topic, except i don't know who reads it. If you are interested, ask me, i'll tell you.

I miss EVERYONE like always. Especially maddy, lyss, steph, audi, and kaite. Of course i miss my dad alot. Oh ronald.

Anyhoo. expect more