Maddy
Okay, i don't know if she reads this, but i will be writing this regardless.
I am nervous about Maddy. I seriously am. When we entered college, she was doing great; she went to school, she had her jobs, and she was with audi. Now, she isn't going to school (which is totally not her fault), she has two new better jobs, and she is still with audi. Okay. So , her is where my nervousness comes in. She started talking to me about going away to colorado, by herself mind you, to go to a nanny school and to probably find work with a rich family or something. She said that she can see audi on the weekends because she will only be a couple states away. WTF? SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!! She hasn't even finished freshman year of college, she has her entire friend and family base in stl, and one of the only reasons that she is doing this is so she can be closer to audi. HERE"S the reality check: people have long distance relationships all the time without uprooting their entire future to be some rich, spoiled brat's nanny. I can't believe this. And the not calling me back thing is completely ridiculus.
In the end, i feel that she is leaving me, and that it doesn't bother her. That she has audi now and i have passed my usefulness. I was so excited to have her in town next yearl, but if she were to leave, i don't think that i would be able to do it. I really and genuinely feel like she doesn't care about me and that is starting to hurt me. My really close friends here talk to their best friends all the time, every day actually. They call their friends and their friends call them, but i don't get any calls from my best friend. I love maddy more than is probably healthy, and to hear her making all these plans and to not talk to me or discuss any of them with me like my input doesnt matter really really hurts.
The whole thing with audi is such another deal. In my opinion, audi was the most amazing thing that could ever happen to maddy, but i question the advice that audi is giving maddy. Is audi really thinking in terms of reality? Does she okay all this or does she hint to maddy that this is a HUGE chance? All i do know for sure is that audi makes maddy the happiest girl in the world, and that is all that i need to approve of her.
I need to be home. I should have went home this weekend.. I need to be home.
I am nervous about Maddy. I seriously am. When we entered college, she was doing great; she went to school, she had her jobs, and she was with audi. Now, she isn't going to school (which is totally not her fault), she has two new better jobs, and she is still with audi. Okay. So , her is where my nervousness comes in. She started talking to me about going away to colorado, by herself mind you, to go to a nanny school and to probably find work with a rich family or something. She said that she can see audi on the weekends because she will only be a couple states away. WTF? SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!! She hasn't even finished freshman year of college, she has her entire friend and family base in stl, and one of the only reasons that she is doing this is so she can be closer to audi. HERE"S the reality check: people have long distance relationships all the time without uprooting their entire future to be some rich, spoiled brat's nanny. I can't believe this. And the not calling me back thing is completely ridiculus.
In the end, i feel that she is leaving me, and that it doesn't bother her. That she has audi now and i have passed my usefulness. I was so excited to have her in town next yearl, but if she were to leave, i don't think that i would be able to do it. I really and genuinely feel like she doesn't care about me and that is starting to hurt me. My really close friends here talk to their best friends all the time, every day actually. They call their friends and their friends call them, but i don't get any calls from my best friend. I love maddy more than is probably healthy, and to hear her making all these plans and to not talk to me or discuss any of them with me like my input doesnt matter really really hurts.
The whole thing with audi is such another deal. In my opinion, audi was the most amazing thing that could ever happen to maddy, but i question the advice that audi is giving maddy. Is audi really thinking in terms of reality? Does she okay all this or does she hint to maddy that this is a HUGE chance? All i do know for sure is that audi makes maddy the happiest girl in the world, and that is all that i need to approve of her.
I need to be home. I should have went home this weekend.. I need to be home.
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